I Want to Hold you, Woman and Share with You Something that I Hold

Something that Touches Me Always

by Dion

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Where are you? You who are opposite me and like me. Sister, friend, lover, soulmate. I have a will to be loved and to love that never dies. I have never been loved by a woman - never really given myself, taken her, merged completely with a woman. I am ready. Hold me so we can be more complete. So we can at moments leave our bodies together. My life has become so joyful. I am strong in my work, in my friendships, in my stillness. I see you, woman and I want to touch you with my fingers, embrace you with my chest and shoulders, merge my lips and tongue with yours. I want to put my hand on your heart. Caress your eyes with my eyes. My love for you is limitless and eternal.

I stand here - a man in love.

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Where is she? Do I want this love too much? It is the great pain of my life. I am searching. I stand outside a window looking in at fire of friends... I unable to come in. I weep. I stand at an abyss of eternal loneliness. I am ready to fall to my death or reach the other side. It is not your love that will save me or my love that will save you but our love - an all encompassing, life affirming love that heals ourselves and others. Loving others is loving the hidden parts of ourselves. I wish to share my love within a hidden part of myself that is my love for you.

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Where are you in your thoughts? Woman, friend, lover, soulmate. I have weaknesses. Needs. I am vulnerable. These are strengths also. I look upwards and my drying tears are like sunlight and wet earth after the rain. Look at me as I will look at you. I have just begun to grow, to love, to transform and bring forth power. My life energy is like a thousand suns, like a raindrop on a leaf, like the waves on the sea, like the singing of birds in the

morning, like a newborn looking at its mother's eyes and then the world. Though there is no woman now to hold in my arms, though this may always be so, I have crossed the abyss of loneliness. I am enveloped by the heartbeat of the Earth. I hear a stillness between these sounds that caresses me. I am touched by the light from the sun. I see a vision

between these images that embraces me. I listen and look for love in all places. I know of a love in all that exists that is truly limitless and eternal.

I stand here - a man in love.

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{All Dionysos Maskaleris writings copyright or copyright pending} 

{When with my permission for the public domain to use for free}

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